"Think Pink, Act Green"

I work in banking industry, specialized in risk management. Everyday i heard about is about money and all factors that determine the decreasing and increasing of it. 

I’m curious, is it the money that matters the most for all people? Then i realize that my question is not relevant since I work in a business entity in which making profit is the reason of its existence. And of course money is its orientation. There is nothing we can do to change this paradigm, even it seems that world has lost its humanity if we see it from business perspective.

Then I ask myself “Do you think that is it the money that matters the most?”.

We are all part of the generation where money is a tool for life. Whatever you need, money can satisfy your needs. You just need to know what to shop and where to shop.

What about love? With money you can go to salon, get a beautiful hair do. Buy cosmetics, cover your weakness. Buy good clothes which absolutely determine whether you look good or not. With all of these, sure you can attract a guy. Combined with inner beauty, yes outer beauty can make a guy fall in and stay in love with you. 

And after consider all aspects and all possibilities, my conclusion is.. in term of WHAT TOOL, yes, money is the best and easiest tool in life. But tool is only a tool that useless if we don’t know how to use it properly.

So IT IS NOT THE MONEY IT SELF THAT MATTERS THE MOST, IT IS HOW WE UTILIZE IT. IT IS WHAT WE BUY AND WHAT WE DO WITH THE THINGS WE BUY ACTUALLY MATTERS. 

Noun matters, but verb is what matters the most.

Things matter, but how we use it that matters the most.

Life matter, but how we live this life that matters the most.

I hate when tumblr ask me to title my writing because I so damn don’t know how to labeling this feeling.

It’s the feeling when I feel so lonely but still not sure about what makes me feel lonely. I guess it’s because I don’t have you, Mom, in here. I do it all by my self and I’m freaking tired taking care of my self alone, everyday. I need you to comfort me, to tell me that everything i stressed about is gonna be okay. I need just to see you everyday just to feel that I’m not alone in this world, that my burden will reduced every time I see you and realize that I have you to support me.

But you’re just not here. You’re busy with your own business and all I can do now is depending to my self. 

God, You are The greatest, please give me strength to accept what You’ve decided to me and to change this condition to the one I favor.